[ this is somewhere between startling and caring, and it summons up another thought, a crayonlike memory of luo wenzhou, grabbing onto fei du and holding him tight in a similar situation, and the gentle touch makes him --
he hiccups. the noise is tiny, and fragile, because fei du is fragile. for all of the terrifying fronts he can put up, for the joking, silly, playful gremlin he can be, in reality, this is what's hiding underneath. a terrified little boy who's lost everything, who has dug his claws into the last good things that he's loved only to watch them be ripped away.
someone who tried to do everything he could to protect that person, and failed.
he is violently, violently trembling, and he flinches back from the touch, but he takes a shuddering breath. ]
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he hiccups. the noise is tiny, and fragile, because fei du is fragile. for all of the terrifying fronts he can put up, for the joking, silly, playful gremlin he can be, in reality, this is what's hiding underneath. a terrified little boy who's lost everything, who has dug his claws into the last good things that he's loved only to watch them be ripped away.
someone who tried to do everything he could to protect that person, and failed.
he is violently, violently trembling, and he flinches back from the touch, but he takes a shuddering breath. ]
- Sorry.